13 April 2012









'apermanent other'

an unclaimed moment
Apermanent other
a Gaze cast long over parking lots
l o n g s h a d o w e d A Y s
of the ignorant child, crowned

I'm as unfamiliar with living in my body
as i am puzzled by the guts of a car (sang, America!)
to render your cornfield tableau i i i i
a silent companion, like a dog
(i familiar with grids, buttons, addresses)
+ Yu gaze bent staring towards the open hood of it
a good brother, well-spent day
Apermanent other

Open mouth thru a tunnel ov illuminated dust
your desert rage, bucolic desire mined on a farm the beach a school it's days and fits

Your figure on the sunset coast
as I die in my beachchair. (Thanatos in gray suit, dancing on the horizon, haunting David)

THIS RIFT : PIXELATED,
A SCREEN - FORCED DIVISION

(clefted my forehead)-

oVAlens :-: BINARY
(born shackled, liberation sold
in a stranger's sweat Teacher's palm mimics
a forehead your smile, like mine, reflected down these hallways a million times over,
daisy-linked. pores a nexus


THE OBJECT
A RECLAMATION OV FANTASY
THE DREAM : MADE PHYSICAL
REFLECTION OV FORM BELOW
TORRID ORANGE STREETPOST
THE CURVE OV YR FACE
o angel my demon

THE OBJECTIVE : Periphreality
THE ENDLESS POSSIBILITY
revealed in the world's last hour
(hundreds ov those_)

Your scent, ov fear, us shackled out the window
An August Maelstrom
and we never were brothers.
and we never were brothers.
and we never was a sister.

(an appeal to ancestor/element)
i i i i sacred lamb - drink deep to divine sensuous mystery, intoxicate in your stains,
joy inspired.
Power without Return.
(No Depletion, no haunting.

And if anything but to give oneself up to the Beloved is Black Magick,
if my kiss upon your cheek
stranger
is but a hallway mirror to glimpse your own endless mystery,)

- Forget my gaze.
- Let the idea rest, & silence speak
- breathing find a home-element
- grass shepherded


divine mystery - gilded Word in me

i i i i reclaim my desire, Angel
the object : to breath
to welcome surprise to drink to life

(My silence absolves regret)

Description ov a Corrision,
Your model ov the universe rushing inwards-
ov Contradiction, crumbling signifiers contraction
the slow withdrawal of light into concentrated center

I BRING UNBLINKING WAFTS OV LAPIS
BENT METAL TEMPLE ISIS
PALMS RAISED BREATH INCENSED
RETURN INNOCENCE - CONATUS
MERCURIAL AQUARIUS
BREAK THE LITURGICAL PROCESSES
SILENCE HOLDS SOMETHING MORE ::: A SLAVE'S APOSTASY
THE WORD ; THE WHORE ::: TO KNOW YR BODY
WITNESS MY SEAL AND SIGIL
A PROPHET? PROBABLY


THE RISEN SUN CROWNED AND CONQUERING

(fuck off; this isn't a professional blog) 'NO ANSWER EVER'

nO Mystics, No Great Work, and No Answers Ever.
Some people
born with the right membranes
can love their own body


i i i i servant
deaf & dumb
will always return
to suck a thumb

No Great Races No Glyph No Revelation
life curls forwards, + stares back between it's knees
Shivering. looking for some worm Justification
to make it all worth it.

i i i i feel ugly
low and undeserving
doubtful of the 'spirit'
and i hate myself for what i'm not
(6'2 vivacious and black)
(a soccer player)
(a skater)
so I'm a hater.

and if Tibet, great city of the Dead
Sings true of desire - + what it means
and if Mexico - node of life, red earth, Solar Tarahuma
carries no answers but decaying moss & forgetfulness in it's clay Ayahuasca bowls,
There Will Be No Adventure.


INTERMISSION


all my self righteous transmissions
shed their vowels on the grid (Ov vicarious sensation,)
While i shiver, coronary
Contemplating your perfect splendor
your armour ov kinship
Flavor and Iron and youth Oxidated

"Against." :: 3 vowels, 4 consonants tumble inward
no struggle no lesson You who placed behind regret
so deservingly

It's in your nature.

Last night i i i i prayed an angel take me
to show me my new name
new navel