09 November 2012

i love u ...

 "4 getting heart " <forgetting hard>

haVe mercy 4 gentle reckless
                    4 new dream begs fallen angel

i can feel your mind too

opEn arms.... i could melt. i air b4 u feel me gone. a last chance.

opEn yoUr eyes

don't i know you from somewhere?    do you know what? can you make it rain?


music for alone & loving someone far, on november ninth



lover can u feel my heart so far away do u care to bring it

30 October 2012

enough said


AALIYAH feat. DRAKE





Let Luv B Yr Lite

if
the night settles
sum1 save me
4rom oblivion ..











< i feel a fist in my stomach >

22 October 2012

stills from 'summr school' performance









    Photo credit :: seraphimseraphim.com

21 September 2012

// stoned boys - - Song 6 live @ Faces & Laces 24.06.2012 HD




Supreme Cuts & Haleek Maul - "M00N"


02 July 2012

Venus

what not
not what
suffer doubt

i i inspired vessel for your avarice
willow skimming surface water
pretending, in dreams
cream face mark, coagulating battery
to paint on slimy

- projection of intent, necessitate your fantasy, your wish is commanded - - -

(mymy dream a beach dream)
frowned rod plunged thru arm twisted
bad dream thin sheets

i cried out to Bacchus in fear
or whoever
and you were laughing
but i didn’t deserve or
whatever

not believe
what was
would go thru with this
flesh is superficial surface + my only ironed gleaning
from torn treasure maps

(so many roads and forward
- - you won't have to worry - -
maybe something tired cowering
- - you won’t have to whine - -
and backwards placenta
nictatating mistep now, didn’t wanna ever hate my flesh
+ im hoppin over lava spots man

circled landmark
pastel accusation
+ a collar presented to me, well manicured, familiar
dogs can’t say thank you
dogs can’t see in colors
dog don’t know what better

well @ least im not numb
@ least i still tumble forward for the sun
in the new millenium sufficient programming allows me to remember my name
Lacunated ~// original mindset

(washed, parallel to bad dreams in the ocean
my horse brothers gallop tumble off waves
equilibrium reached and super seeded
not a safety net strapped to my right wrist
but a means to a journey
golden slate embossed with barnacles, beads, the number 8

Head turned westward, i know my
Venus is reppin me
pressed against my breast when im inhaling

sweet grain of knowing, for Giving
love, be it blessing
is water more than weapon

i really hope to listen
i truly ask your pardon
i won’t hate if u won’t man
i wish you more love then
more love more love more love
(PAN)

- - - - - - - - - - - - -

“Life has served but to fix
Our hearts; love lingers on the tongue,
And one who loves once is always young.”

“Man is so infinitely small
In all these stars, determinate.
Maker and moulder of them all,
Man is so infinitely great!”

13 April 2012









'apermanent other'

an unclaimed moment
Apermanent other
a Gaze cast long over parking lots
l o n g s h a d o w e d A Y s
of the ignorant child, crowned

I'm as unfamiliar with living in my body
as i am puzzled by the guts of a car (sang, America!)
to render your cornfield tableau i i i i
a silent companion, like a dog
(i familiar with grids, buttons, addresses)
+ Yu gaze bent staring towards the open hood of it
a good brother, well-spent day
Apermanent other

Open mouth thru a tunnel ov illuminated dust
your desert rage, bucolic desire mined on a farm the beach a school it's days and fits

Your figure on the sunset coast
as I die in my beachchair. (Thanatos in gray suit, dancing on the horizon, haunting David)

THIS RIFT : PIXELATED,
A SCREEN - FORCED DIVISION

(clefted my forehead)-

oVAlens :-: BINARY
(born shackled, liberation sold
in a stranger's sweat Teacher's palm mimics
a forehead your smile, like mine, reflected down these hallways a million times over,
daisy-linked. pores a nexus


THE OBJECT
A RECLAMATION OV FANTASY
THE DREAM : MADE PHYSICAL
REFLECTION OV FORM BELOW
TORRID ORANGE STREETPOST
THE CURVE OV YR FACE
o angel my demon

THE OBJECTIVE : Periphreality
THE ENDLESS POSSIBILITY
revealed in the world's last hour
(hundreds ov those_)

Your scent, ov fear, us shackled out the window
An August Maelstrom
and we never were brothers.
and we never were brothers.
and we never was a sister.

(an appeal to ancestor/element)
i i i i sacred lamb - drink deep to divine sensuous mystery, intoxicate in your stains,
joy inspired.
Power without Return.
(No Depletion, no haunting.

And if anything but to give oneself up to the Beloved is Black Magick,
if my kiss upon your cheek
stranger
is but a hallway mirror to glimpse your own endless mystery,)

- Forget my gaze.
- Let the idea rest, & silence speak
- breathing find a home-element
- grass shepherded


divine mystery - gilded Word in me

i i i i reclaim my desire, Angel
the object : to breath
to welcome surprise to drink to life

(My silence absolves regret)

Description ov a Corrision,
Your model ov the universe rushing inwards-
ov Contradiction, crumbling signifiers contraction
the slow withdrawal of light into concentrated center

I BRING UNBLINKING WAFTS OV LAPIS
BENT METAL TEMPLE ISIS
PALMS RAISED BREATH INCENSED
RETURN INNOCENCE - CONATUS
MERCURIAL AQUARIUS
BREAK THE LITURGICAL PROCESSES
SILENCE HOLDS SOMETHING MORE ::: A SLAVE'S APOSTASY
THE WORD ; THE WHORE ::: TO KNOW YR BODY
WITNESS MY SEAL AND SIGIL
A PROPHET? PROBABLY


THE RISEN SUN CROWNED AND CONQUERING

(fuck off; this isn't a professional blog) 'NO ANSWER EVER'

nO Mystics, No Great Work, and No Answers Ever.
Some people
born with the right membranes
can love their own body


i i i i servant
deaf & dumb
will always return
to suck a thumb

No Great Races No Glyph No Revelation
life curls forwards, + stares back between it's knees
Shivering. looking for some worm Justification
to make it all worth it.

i i i i feel ugly
low and undeserving
doubtful of the 'spirit'
and i hate myself for what i'm not
(6'2 vivacious and black)
(a soccer player)
(a skater)
so I'm a hater.

and if Tibet, great city of the Dead
Sings true of desire - + what it means
and if Mexico - node of life, red earth, Solar Tarahuma
carries no answers but decaying moss & forgetfulness in it's clay Ayahuasca bowls,
There Will Be No Adventure.


INTERMISSION


all my self righteous transmissions
shed their vowels on the grid (Ov vicarious sensation,)
While i shiver, coronary
Contemplating your perfect splendor
your armour ov kinship
Flavor and Iron and youth Oxidated

"Against." :: 3 vowels, 4 consonants tumble inward
no struggle no lesson You who placed behind regret
so deservingly

It's in your nature.

Last night i i i i prayed an angel take me
to show me my new name
new navel

29 March 2012