30 December 2010

'touch To live' - new poetry

nervous nights before you
will i bring enough to fill you
is your smile
just like the first time

did i blaspheme in my day dream

getting lost used to be easy
accidently reckless
i explored you


iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou

now with map key dream on paper
I can only backstep the trail,
and see you wanting on the sidelines -
blessings aren't enough,
like food or flowers - - -

eyes silent eyes meet
hands learn hands all
over again - no words, just
the everything in your mouth

we glow, baby
we stay bright

if you want it - ask!
if you got it - give!
the word to touch
the touch to live

new song: 'coffin'

Black night is pouring thru
the cracks
crying on the highway
ur poor little soul
throw yourself on the floor
besides me

Fuck progression
good intentions
you didn't pay attention

we
all make
prophets
this is my coffin

your fate is told
your futures golden
newborn baby
in the cauldron
it's a story not told so often
jump the cradle
into the coffin


skim the fat of good intentions
know honesty
ready for blind ascencion

fuck progression
good intentions
you didn't pay attention

we
all make
prophets

this is
my
coffin

we
all
make
prophets

this
is
my
coffin

23 December 2010

perfection is presence

in a perfect world
i've made everyone happy

but considering time
that's a selfish folly
like making only myself happy

sometimes i worry i can only live the dream
if i segment my smile like a tangerine
pass it around to the whole class
so everyone has enough -

but considering time
sublimation isn't the answer
and it makes me smile to know, still,
in a perfect world
i am with you

and that's enough

14 December 2010

new song:- 'sparrow bruise'

don’t you worry
… don’t you rush
i’m keeping it safe,
it’s right in front of you,
i want to show you

Let me be the sparrow
Let me be in need
Let me see that bruise

replace your inhibition
i got you man
reacquaint with dream of

despite us despite us
i'll hold you in my life cuz
you’re beautiful

Release release
The tightness
It’s real, aren’t I, so what does
It do
i want to be some thing new
for you

softly breathed the sparrow
when you're calling i won't wait
to whisper on your bruise
it’s right in front of you,
i’m keeping it safe,
i long to know the truth
furled inside of you

new fiction:- 'zero hour'

One weekend night at college I was walking back to my dormitory from a friend’s apartment pretty loaded. I was drunk enough that the cold didn’t bother me, and with my music the entire walk through the empty campus seemed eerily lurid. Everything was quiet and empty, and I was walking through a parking lot thinking pause pause this is a lonely moment in time.

I stopped inside an empty courtyard muffled with fresh snow when I saw a small rabbit lounging in the boxed off soil. I had previously noticed rabbits on campus but all my friends insisted that I was wrong, they were squirrels. This was definitely a rabbit. Ears. I sensed a warm tunnel of wind between us.

I’m not a predator I’m friendly I’m a friendly animal

I try to make my eyes say this and approach it slowly, loose eyes soft breath.
Unlike the hunter. I need this soft thing to feel at ease with me
- but I need it to look at me and say brother

Sides of my head are prickling swell in my gut I smile say hi, I know in my heart
we’re safe cause we’re the same
– and I keep staring when it raises its head turns it to look into me.
I sense a rush of garbled connection – like an alien love song – and time recedes. I barely remember the rest. I came back to my room some few hours later, sleep dreamlessly. When I wake up, I have a headache, I can’t reveal some lost statement or judgment and it paralyzes me.


I remember this night sometimes, and when I do, the image comes sharper than any
from my time as a student. And most of the time I can’t describe or remember it at all, can’t say what I think, can’t think with words - but I feel the
space
– a jump cut ache. it feels like zero hour always.

rap in progress - the beast

they don't know when
        you play pretend
 paper smile full of bile
 cigarette in your hand
  - STAND/
      see the end begin/
            dog eats man/
         kids are canned/
legions mouth is open whirring/
           say your SEX is a SIN/
               say your FLAGS a SHAM
         / youthful idealism's blurring with their master plan
                             they sooth the kids with talk alluring/
                             then they bomb japan/
                            damn, cut your blistered roots off                            leave your parents in the dust
                           escape the uterine tomb
                               of the mother-fucking succubus
                                    don't let them snip your dick/
                                               and betray your trust/
                                      it's time to
                                      quell the suffering
                          THEY DON'T STAND WIT US

08 December 2010

what's been distracting

                          Bat For Lashes           -           Siren Song
                                                              Are you my family? Can I stay with you a while?
                                                Can I stop off in your bed tonight? I could make you smile.

In the morning I'll make you breakfast In the evening I'll warm the bed.
And I'll always be happy to kiss you Promise I'll never get sad.

Till the siren come calling, calling
It's driving me evil, evil.
I was a heartbreaker, I loved you
The same way I do.
But I've got so much wickedness and sin.

My name is Pearl And I'll love you the best way I know how
My blonde curls slice through your heart. And the siren come calling in the night, till the light.

Help you dress yourself up fancy Bathe you when you get sore
I'll be good, I think I could be All you would want and more and more.  Be proud when you dazzle the wondrous. Glitter your eyes for the town
Tell every last boy that you're my man. Try not to let you down.

Till the siren come calling, calling It's driving me evil, evil.
I was a heartbreaker, I loved you The same way I do I've got so much wickedness and sin.

My name is Pearl. And I'll love you the best way I know how
                             My blonde curls slice through your heart.
                                    And the stars are exploding the lights
                                       It won't be long until you'll be mine. It won't be long until you leave.

                                       It won't be long until I'll see your face. It won't be long to erase your pain.
                                      And my broken heart to belong to your body                                             

                                                                                            Cause I'm evil, evil...



                             Bat for Lashes - Pearl's Dream
There's a place I must go  There's a place I must go
It's not a place I have seen  But I’ll get there in a blue dream
Down an ocean road

Past a sign that says 'good love town'
Into a darkness where the stars do drown
Where the starry me needs to be free

And when the battle was done I was promised my sun

But with a thousand nights gone  To any kingdom I run
And when the battle was done  I was promised my sun  But with a thousand knights gone  To any kingdom I run


There's a place I must go  There's a place I must go

For my heart is a child
That stumbles lonely for the arms of the wild

Hear the desert sigh  Sing the city's lullaby  The giant iris of the wide blue sky  Showing me the way


And when the battle was done  I was promised my son  But with a thousand knights gone  To any kingdom I run


And when the battle was done  I was promised my son  But with a thousand knights gone

To any kingdom I run

You know that it's time to go up, up, up, up, up

Had a big machine riding your shoulders
You know that it's time to go up, up, up, up, up  Had a big machine riding your shoulders
You know that it's time to go up, up, up, up, up 

Had a big machine riding your shoulders




 




06 December 2010

reachingthru reachmethru




warm skin vibration
youth glare distortion
this city's full of wandering

it's all orange guitar here
sunset like a clementine
7 PM - absent moms eating pizza
a gospel on your t-shirt

Your breath tastes like hot salt air
- I could get lost here-
sand behind your right ear

riffs echo months ahead their
                             summoning
down blue block concrete tunnel
an entire day away from school

i've never been here with you but i'm not a fool to imagine